大人の子供

この時代の時間
慣れるもんじゃない
誰もが心のどこかが
子供のままで
大人になってしまってる
またのどこかが
過去（むかし）の人に
欠片を預けっぱなしして

穴だらけのこころには
いっぱい、いっぱいの
孤独と
不安
投稿できない感情
胸に閉じこんで
過ごす毎日

大人になっても
大事に、大事に
育てるのよ
自分のことを

遊ぶには勇気が要ると思う。

遊ぶには勇気が要ると思う。
遊びの方程式を書いてみました。

きっかけ ＋ 勇気 ＝ 遊び
遊び ＋ 楽しい ＝ 妄想
妄想 ＋ 出会い ＝ 夢
夢 ＋ 目標 ＝ 計画
計画 ＋ 行動 ＝ 実践
実践 ＋ 定期化 ＝ 習慣
習慣 ＋ 刺激 ＝ 挑戦
挑戦 ＋ 継続 ＝ 成長
成長 ＋ 変化 ＝ 記憶
記憶 ＋ 整理 ＝ 経験
経験 ＋ 仲間 ＝ 勇気

「教育」と「学習」

直結しているような、

していないような

二人の模索。

「治療」と「回復」

直結しているような、

していないような

二人の呼吸。

i think human rights should not be thought of as a focus on the individual. Nor is it a "natural" way things "should be". i think it is an assertion that all humans are members of a larger, consciously crafted human society that has time and again defied the boundaries of how animals in nature live and die. Human rights, as are most ideologues, unnatural. it is the species' calculated attempt at defining ourselves not by the notion of some genetic superiority over other animals, but by the society we belong to and our relationship to it.

coin toss

coin toss

realism is knowing that out of 100 coin tosses about 50 will be heads.

pessimism is looking at the 40 heads before you and concluding you're going to get a tail.

optimism is knowing that it's your one toss that matters and your toss is independent of all the other tosses before and after you.

idealism is thinking that all coin tosses should land on its edge. magic (or engineering) is when you actually make it happen.

タイプです。

タイプです。と、タイプの人に言われたらドキドキしませんか？タイプの人って、大体なにかの条件とか傾向とかありますよね。

タイプってマッチングする仕様みたいなものじゃないでしょうか。つまり、仕様に準じたものなら、タイプです。

言い換えれば、条件すら満たせば誰だってタイプ＝互換部品の候補になれますので、別にあなたじゃなくても困ることはない。

タイプと言われる時点であなたは唯一無二のあなたとして特別視されていない。あなたじゃないと行けない理由がないわけです。

そう、タイプでも、タイプじゃなくても、残酷な現実です。

エネルギー

例えば超小型核融合発電機が、生まれた時に一人に一台支給され、その発電機が一生使用できるエネルギーを提供してくれるとする。一生のエネルギー生成のカーボンフットプリントはそれで集約される。

電気機器は基本的にその発電機の出力量以下の電力で作られるが、起業する人が工場を作る場合それ以上のエネルギーが必要になる。その場合は人のエネルギーを譲ってもらうことになる。売り手はその代わりに、買い手からそのエネルギーに相応する対価を貰って生活する。

そうすると、2つの通貨が存在することになる。対価を払う時に使用する通貨と、エネルギーという通貨。

タダで核融合発電機をもらうなんて仕事せずに食って行けて社会の秩序が崩れると思われるけど、実はそれ以前に崩れてる。先進AIの社会では人間がいなくても資本主が価値の創出ができる社会になったから、社会が働かずに食って行ける人と、働けずに餓死する人に分裂した。働かず者食うべからずなど通用しない時代の始まりだった。

お金は資源の分配に何千年も使われてきたけど、殆どの労働が自動化できちゃった時代では、親から大金を相続してない人には何も分配されないし、お金の価値自体の変動にまで翻弄される。

でもいつの時代でも、形が変わってもエネルギーだけは絶対的だ。エネルギーは命と言えなくても、エネルギーは生命力と言っても良いでしょう。

レジ袋の利用は環境問題に繋がりますが、そのコストを個人消費者に課する筋がないと思う。消費者が便利を求めて、企業がその市場で儲かるためにレジ袋を提案して売り出した訳だ。消費者が求めているのは「便利」であり、レジ袋ではない。

プラスチックは素晴らしい発明だと思う。本来なら軽くて長持ちという特徴を最大に生かすべきですが、資本社会は「安さ」という特徴に噛み付いた。

シングルユースプラスチックが問題なら、何回も繰り返して使えるようにすればいい。クリーニング屋さんにホワイトシャツを出したらプラスチックのハンガーで仕上がるけど、ハンガーは基本的にお店に返したら再利用される。

レジ袋もハンガーのようにちゃんとした袋を製造すれば返却できるようにすればいい。もちろん回収や消毒などはコストがかかる。けど、それは「便利」で稼いでる企業が本来考えるべき課題です。仮にレジ袋が全面に禁止されたらオレは恐らく店舗にカバンを持って行くじゃなくて、アマゾンで買うことにする。

レジ袋を有料化しても、レジ袋を提案した企業のビジネスモデルになんの変化もなく、逆に環境問題をレジ袋を使用する消費者に転嫁できてしまった。レジ袋を有料化せずに、提供側に課税してレジ袋の「安さ」を無効化できれば袋の回収や商品の配達のコストが妥当にみえてくるじゃないか？

追伸。レジ袋の代わりにトートバッグを使う方が多いですが、プラスチック廃棄問題とは別の環境問題ですが、トートバッグを製造する為のエネルギーとレジ袋を製造する為のエネルギーを比較すればトートバッグは素材によってレジ袋の50〜2万倍だそうです。つまり、トートバッグ2枚持っていればすでに一生分のレジ袋を超えてる。レジでホイホイ売るものではありません。

拝啓十五の君へ

拝啓十五の君へ
あれからさらに十年
誰にも話せない悩みの種
消えるどころか
立派な木になっている

苦しい中で今を生きている
何一つ変わってないかもしれないけど
十五の時より
今の方が幸せだと
言いきれる

悩みの木が消えたわけではない
ただ
喜びの木も
大事に大事に
同じぐらい大きく
育ててきた。

拝啓三十の君へ
拝啓四十の君へ
よく頑張りました
ありがとう。

拝啓五十の君へ
喜びの木が
もっともっと
大きくなるといいね。

Dunning Krugger levels

pre-knowledge
you don't know that you do not know

starter
you know that you do not know

newbie
you know that you know

apprentice
you know that you do not know what you do not know

maturity
you know that you know what you know

veteran
you do not know that you know what you do not know

master
you know that your know what you do not know

god level
you know

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compulsory education blueprint, if i could replace all education (updated)

planning and projection
-> budget management
-> personal finance
-> economics
-> sales and management
-> statistics and risk management
-> pure mathematics
-> business track

navigating the human world
-> first language
-> acting and social skills
-> critical thinking
-> second language
-> human geography
-> politics
-> minority experience
-> history
-> law track

navigating the physical world
-> physical education
-> physical geography
-> sports performance and nutrition
-> basic survival skills
-> physics
-> biology
-> chemistry
-> medicine/science track

navigating the human condition
-> "how things work"
-> programming
-> music
-> art and design
-> listening and communication
-> psychology and stress management
-> literature
-> systems and solutions
-> anthropology and sociology
-> engineering track

living with the world
-> pets and plants
-> sex education
-> evolution and the environment
-> caring for people
-> diversity and special needs
-> culture, religious studies, and organizational behavior
-> commercial farming and industry
-> energy, culture, and sustainability
-> educational science (teaching)
-> human resource management
-> managememt track

A magic spell is a social pact where we offer up our agency (the "sacrifice") by conditioning our response to a ritual (often involving the speaking of specific words, ie, the "casting" of a spell) so that that ritual can be weaponized by another person (the "witch") when the conditioned response is triggered within a social group and the effect of its empathic response to played out.

The reason why magic requires a sacrifice is that words have power only because we offer up our power to them.

The fact that people are getting so easily triggered by so many words nowadays makes me think Magic is still growing strong despite the rise of Science.

compulsory education blueprint, if i could replace all education

compulsory education blueprint, if i could replace all education

planning and projection
-> budget management
-> personal finance
-> economics
-> sales and management
-> statistics and risk management
-> pure mathematics

navigating the human world
-> first language
-> acting and social skills
-> critical thinking
-> second language
-> human geography
-> politics
-> minority experience
-> history
-> law

navigating the physical world
-> physical education
-> physical geography
-> sports performance and nutrition
-> basic survival skills
-> physics
-> biology
-> chemistry

navigating the human condition
-> "how things work"
-> programming
-> music
-> art and design
-> listening and communication
-> psychology and stress management
-> literature
-> systems and solutions
-> anthropology and sociology
-> engineering

design x parkour

design x parkour
the problem with purpose

the paradigm of purpose is problematic. the idea that the value of a thing is determined before its existence changes everything. it changes the way people live, the way things are used, the way we make sense of existence.

when design is driven by purpose, we create a specification that describes what something isn't by spelling out what it is. and when its creation is driven by economy, we ensure that the thing we make is no more and no less than the specification. what's wrong about that?

let's design a table. let's decide its purpose is for working. let's define work to be computer work. so this table can be described to be a surface raised to waist level so that computers can be put on it. let's say we want to be able to put computers and books on it so it should support up to 100kg. we can then describe the surface to be made of a wooden panel, supported by metal legs. this gives us a framework for costing and pricing decisions. what's bad about this?

we created a wooden surface to support 100kg. by doing so we decided it does not need to withstand greater loads such as when two adults need to stand on top of it to change the fluorescent. it does not need to withstand sideway impacts such as when your dog runs into it. it is not sturdy enough to be makeshift bed. or a shelter during an earthquake. in a way, it comes with all sorts of terms and conditions that we do not see when we look at it. we see a table, a thing. but it is not a table. it is the embodiment of a design specification. it is not a thing, it is a set of rules in physical form.

that's the problem. our physical experience of the world compels us to see things. but we no longer create things. we cannot understand the nature of the objects before us without understanding the context of its design. we need to read the user manual to know if something can be stacked, or washed, or taken outdoors, or thrown away. we live in a physical world that is increasingly complex to maneuver, and at the same time we as a society are simply assuming that people will somehow understand these things without some sort of education.

parkour to me is that education. it teaches how any terrain can be explored safely. it deconstructs the objects before us, taking apart the set of rules it represents and reconstructs it as a real object. and when we see what is really in front of us, we are better primed to navigate it.

when we move in parkour, we are interested in how we interact with the environment, how we interpret the terrain and listen to its rhythm. we are interested in expressing how we are understanding the things in front of us, beyond the prescription of its designer.

by most standards, purpose is how the world is getting built today. every action needs a budget and every approval needs a justification, a purpose. but when we are moving across a terrain, we experience how inadequate the lens is purpose is, and how arbitrary the motion of justification can be.

not every existence needs a purpose to be of value. not things we create. and certainly not you.

we sleep because

we sleep because
dying is too hard
we are not grown up enough

each night we practice
giving in, or giving up,
when we let the ritual of sleep
swallow us

trusting that we will be born again
when morning comes
reincarnated into the same flesh

the same sins
our days spin into a continuous
gradient of grays

we stop counting
and pretend to forget
the lovers
the cities
and the jobs that fed us,
the friends
the faith
the songs
the fears
and languages that defined us
each a baptism of fire

we have lived
many, many lives
and until we die
whether we are counting or not
in the morning
we will be born again

and we will once more
be young enough
to waste it all over
one more time

PDCA

PDCAだけを追求するエンジニアは価値が低い。永遠に改善をやってたら必ずコストパが悪くなる収穫逓減のリスクがやってくる。

そもそもこの工程(仕事)はまだ意味があるのか？もっと価値がある何かがないのか？をとい続けねばならない。任された仕事の範囲もそうだけど、視野をさらに広げて言うと、いいエンジニアは必ず頭の片隅で、転職を考えていなければならない。

Plan-do-checkで改善する余地があると判断しても、改善しない場合のリスクを識別(identify)し、放置して別の仕事をやる場合の効果を分析(analyze)し、取るべきActionを戦略化(strategize)しないと、PDCAは返って負の連鎖になる。

戦略戦略よくいうけど、戦略とは、何をやらせるかを決めることではなくて、何を諦めるのかを選ぶのが肝心です。資源は無限にあるものではないから、手を抜いてもいい箇所を活かすのが大事です。真面目な人どうして失敗するかというと、手を抜くノウハウがないからです。

真面目なお客さんに対策対策いつも言われますが、対策しない方が正解の場合も多いです。対策を求めすぎて失敗を許さない。失敗を許さないからPDCAを徹底させる。このどこかで日本の生産力が自滅している。

consumers have (1) needs that are the bare essentials and then (2) dreams and desires which are means of self-actualization. businesses offer (1) products that are basically components you build your own solution from, and then (2) comprehensive solutions that address your specific area of interest.

and businesses have a dirty secret - they know that most people know what they need but not what they desire; if they sold solutions to answer your basic needs, they will quickly run out of things to sell you.

that's where they figured you out : they will offer you a confusing array of products to address your basic needs, and then paint a million desires for which they have expensive solutions for, so that you will always be seeking but never finding, always be purchasing but never satisfied.

this is the uranium that fuels the economy of growth - growth being a description not of the consumer, but of the business' ability to reap profit.

that's why you scrimp on the essentials and buy into whatever the latest trends tell you what your happiness needs to be made of.

put that in another perspective - for your basic needs that you have no specific interest in beyond necessity, you spend precious time assembling the cheapest components together, struggling through badly built components to have a working solution.

and for your dreams and desires, the cream of life, you relinquish control and throw your money at whatever story businesses tell you to believe in this season. next season, you're still feeling unsatisfied, they will sell you a new dream.

satisfaction is when you decide you've had enough. but the economy is like a drug dealer - they won't make money if you don't come back for more.

so be prudent in your choice but don't cut back on spending on necessities. find your dream and then take responsibility over it - your dreams are too important to be entrusted to someone who doesn't know you, and even more so to a corporation whose whole raison d'etre is profit.

happiness is easy if you spent wisely - money is peripheral but time is priceless - spend wisely.

the th problem

if you read "ought" and then add a h in front of it you get the "haught" sound. but if you add a t instead of a h, you read "taught" and still hear the "haught" sound. the English "t" already has a "h" sound inside it. if you read "taught" without the h sound you get a tom and jerry pronunciation English does not actually use.

if you read "saw" and slowly slide your tongue inward to the back of your throat and outward into your teeth, you get the range between the "shore" and "thor" sounds. th is a modified s sound, not a t sound!

"awe" does not have a h sound; adding h to it you get "whore" which does have a h sound. but you don't hear "whore" in "shore" or "thor". there is no h in "sh" and "th" - which means "th" has neither t nor h in it!

what about the buzzing th in "thee" instead of "thief"? try making the d and z sounds together - somewhere between "dee" and "zee" you'll find just the right sound for "thee".

now read "zaw" and slide your tongue to the back of your throat you get the "jaw" sound. if you take the buzzing sound out of both you get the "saw" and "shaw" sounds. why isn't "jaw" spelt "zhaw"? And if you did exactly the same thing with "law" you get "raw", which isn't spelt "lhaw".

so what now? i think so many learners struggle with the English sounds because English consonants are intentionally misleading. the letter h doesn't modify the consonant like a shift key on a keyboard - it replaces it altogether like the alt key. which means h could have been x or j and still worked the same!

so why do we hear the t in "the" as much as we do in "thief"? we've been thoroughly indoctrinated and made to think we're the special ones who have made it to the club. English is messed up and so are we.

therefore we need to think of "the" as "dze", "thief" as "sxief", "jam" as "zjam", "shore" as "sjore", "shrill" as "sjrill", "thrill" as "sxrill", instead of being dicks and telling people they aren't hearing it.

Time is Money

Time is Money は詐欺です。使ったお金はまた巡ってくるけど、過ぎた時間は一瞬も二度と戻って来ない。

過ぎた一瞬ずつの連鎖の果てに命が尽きる。Time is Life、時間は人生そのものです。

しかしMoney is Time は本当です。時間の節約になる便利な商品は高いけど、時間を自由にしてくれる。その自由な時間で生きたい人生の価値を、商品の値段と天秤にかけて感じたもの、それはあなたの人生の価格です。

納得できない時間を通勤と帰宅の間でいやいや過ごしていると、誰かがあなたの人生を知らぬ間売買している。大手なほど、あなたはいなくても困らない量産物です。

Time is Life、時間と同じように、あなたがあなたであるこの人生は二度と巡ってこない。来世が存在するとしても来世の時間は来世の夢に使いたい。

人生を掛けれるほどの夢は最高のサカナです。(サ)醒めるか、(カ)叶えるか、(ナ)悩まされるか、いつまでも決められなければ持ち越しはありません。

夢は行動で計画になる。継続で習慣になる。冒険で真剣になる。成果で実感する。共有で現実になる。

人生は楽しいに決まってる。誰々のせいでうまく行かない理由を言うのは言い訳です。人生不平等だの社会が歪んでんだので逃げるのは愚痴です。

一所懸命だと知恵が出る。中途半端だと、愚痴が出る。いい加減だと、言い訳がでる。不朽の名言だと思います。