笑っても泣いても上手くても下手でも私の人生は毎日本番です！！！

We do not really experience time - we experience the discrepancy between our own change and our simulated version of time.

We panic when we start measuring out this discrepancy with our breath. If we breathed time the way a clock holds it between its hands, time, at least our simulation of it, would cease to exist.

We would be freed from our existential panic, and with any luck, we may indeed be freed even from ourselves.

In dance we synchronize ourselves completely with our simulation of time, and in meditation, we strip ourselves from our simulation of time.

Somewhere between dance and meditation is where we usually are when we actually experience the moment instead of our simulation of it.

But being in the moment is like being a raindrop falling into the sea, in that the line the separates ourselves from the sea of moments, disappears.

And thus we do not really experience time - because if we were really experiencing time, we would not be conscious of it. Ignorance is bliss, but how often do we get there?

Turns out ignorance is hard work!

The problem with life is that because of what we do to survive it, we tend to want to believe there is something intrinsically valuable about the pain we live through - to the extent we do everything we can to remember that pain. That is how most countries write their own history for their children. But we know that pain grabs you and cripples you until your mind can think of nothing but the pain, leaving you little to absorb what history really meant to teach you. It is really no wonder what history tends to repeat itself.

All history has equal value to us because it's a database of behavioral patterns. 

History should be analyzed as data, not sold to the younger generation like a patent portfolio used to make claims on powers based on historical precedence.

We are a connected people. All history is our history, because no history happened in isolation. 

What you get when you try to isolate regional histories is not a different history, but a biased narrative of history.

Move

Don't cry don't stop
Let's go let's dance
Move your hips to the beat
Let the rhythm take the run
Don't think don't recall
When there's music in the air you give it everything you have
The past ain't worth reliving with the present in your hands

All the pain all the living
All the need to be existing
All the mornings waking up to yet another day's routine
No ifs no buts no wanting out of this
You choose your own game you gotta play it to the end

Don't cry don't stop
Let's go let's dance
Move your hips to the beat
Let the rhythm take the run
Don't think don't recall
When the day is in your face you give it everything you have
The dream ain't worth the talk with Chance riding on your breath.

Move on the beat
Groove to the flow
You have your condition I have my shit
Stay with the pain
Live through the blow
These are the qualifications I know
Improvise innovate absorb liberate
Here's the situation are you up for it?

Be real. Be fake.
Be there. Be safe.
You only live once
What is the risk?

Don't cry don't stop
Let's go let's dance
Move your hips to the beat
Let the rhythm take the run
Don't think don't recall
When life is breathing in the air you feed it everything you dare
This is your legacy
What do you have?

Don't let anyone make you think that your dreams are in conflict with your situation or social responsibilities. Reality isn't a valid excuse for running away from your dreams - it is the environment in which you will thrive to make your dreams come true.

An actionable definition of : computer program

An actionable definition of : computer program

The experience a user gets when interacting with a machine called a computer, created by controlling how a computer behaves in response to stimulus (called input) from a user, or by controlling how a user responses to the perceived characteristics of the computer's behavior.

It just struck me that there is so little difference between a computer program and music. That the only time you cannot deny it is a program is when someone is running it. That the source code can no more be the program as can music be heard on a manuscript. That while the process of creating the program may be in isolation, the user is part of the program as much as the listener is part of the music. That programs rarely exist in vacuum but run in an environment full of things such as process scheduling priorities, third party libraries, logic implemented in hardware, just as music is rarely heard in the absolute silence of sounds and personal histories.

The term "user interface" used to mean the pictures on the screen designed by designers for real programmers to follow. Now it's called "user experience" but programmers still think its secondary. So let me say it: the experience IS the program.

Certainly, "real" programs doing heavy duty computing for highly intelligent professionals don't "need" a pretty interface. But whatever "ugly" interface preferred by these users, is perfect only because it is in harmony with the tone of the user'a behavior - just as not all music need words or harmony or melodies.

This brings me to propose that there is a 4:33 of computer programs - shutdown.exe. It is the ultimate expression of what a program can be: the experience of a program can extend beyond the runtime of the program. Shutdown.exe demands a response from its user like no other program does. Sitting through a whole four minutes of it, is like a form of anti-meditation - you can't really sit down and focus on experiencing it.

It is a sad thing that few will get to appreciate the deep conversations between the user and the computer in the 4:33 of programs. Even more so that many platforms are removing the idea of shutdown from the user's universe completely. In a way it's
like claiming that 4:33 isn't music.

There is a host of reasons why well meaning people are in the business of removing shutdown.exe - but it is comforting that reality is currently winning; shutdown.exe has largely been upgraded to demand-reboot-after-updating-while-you're-halfway-through-your-essay.exe. Sure, there is a reality out there where shutdown.exe completely does not exist, but for now, before you say fuck to that annoying pop up the next time - treasure it while it lasts.

An actionable definition of : reality

The collection of conditions perceives to increase or decrease your chances of dying.