Eleven Questions from Cyril

Eleven Questions from Cyril

#myworld

Disclaimer: everything below is personal opinion. 

1) What are we made of? Particles? Waves? Does it matter? 

Rainbows are made of light but when you split light you get a spectrum, not a rainbow. Rainbows are a transient phenomenon that require light, as much as we are natural phenomenons that require matter in the form of our bodies. Rainbows and "us" are just words we assign to how we perceive these phenomenon. 

Our bodies are made of mostly space, littered with what we currently know as quantum particles bound together by at least four basic forces: the strong nuclear, the weak nuclear, Gravity, and electromagnetism. Biology is a phenomenon just like rainbows that work on top of these basic units. 

It matters as much as a rainbow needs to be a rainbow. But then it's "us" to whom whether a rainbow is a rainbow matters. If we are no longer us, we cannot matter to ourselves. But we are alive and life is by definition self-perpetuating; our biology ensures that it matters to most of us. 

2) What is love? 

Love as a feeling is the disposition our brains are in when it's in a balance pf dopamine, serotonin and oxytocin. This disposition opens us to associate the concept of survival with group survival (sometimes taking the form of a "identity") as a solution to personal risks. This does not mean one become selfless but rather more "self-full" - one extends what one thinks of as the self and therefore the range of what one uses and protects to survive. 

3) What will you think about if you were to die in the next five minutes? 

Where can I get meth, quick?

4) Is there a separation between mind and body? 

Yes. The body is made of matter. The mind is made of rainbows. See (1) above. 

5) Are systems of belief arbitrary? 

Yes. But some are useful.  See this library of arbitrary writings: https://libraryofbabel.info/bookmark.cgi?eleven_questions_from_cyril

6) If you believe that the universe couldn’t have happened without “God”, then how did “God” happen? Why does your logic only stop at “universe” and not extend to “God”? 

7) Why did your “God” make gays?  

Because everything is rainbow. 

8) What happens when you stop using language to see and judge yourself and others? 

Assuming that language continues to exist and I surgically opt out of it - everything would be less understandable but more accurate. It'd be like having a base-pi number system with which I can write down the exact value of pi, but nobody would understand me. Words are like digital technology - always  inaccurate by a very accurate amount. 

I would not stop judging, because judging is a fight-or-flight response in my biology. 

9) Is there a place before and after words? 

Yes. When we struggle to express ourselves,  we're trying to leave that place. When we struggle after an awkward pause, we trying to run back to that place. There is no forgiveness in that place because there is no sin. There's also no promises and commitments, no laws that raise our probability of survival. That's why we keep on coming back to this world. 

10) Did you design your thoughts? Do you control your thoughts or do they control you? 

Words are an extension of my fight-or-flight response, just like biology is an extension of physics. My words seem to control me because of love. See (2) above. 

11) Is happiness the only thing that is important?

No. air, food, water, and sleep are too. Happiness is not a result of life; it's a mechanism that statistically ensures most people stay alive.

We watch the Olympics because somewhere deep in our ill informed minds, we think the only reason we're not there winning the golds is because we never decided to train for it. The Paralympics don't get to do that because we are unable to imagine ourselves competing as a disabled person.

Businesses are forced to feature actors and spokesmen from the mainstream because that is the demographic that contributes most to their revenue in order to make their investments worth it.

We grew up conditioned to imagine futures our teachers and parents repeatedly told us. Reality always exceeds our imaginations, and we struggle to pretend that we are above it.

But the way we spend gives us away. Because where our money is, there our hearts will be also.

PS I watched neither the Olympics nor the Paralympics. I enjoy sports, but they're performing at a level too far beyond me for me to really understand.

IMAGINE...

IMAGINE...
Since recent phones have not challenged my imagination, thought I'd try to list what would.

1. Joinable sheet like Extension screens

2. Contactless in-bag charging

3. Spatial location awareness, spatial location services

4. Directional sound

5. 100 meter range non line of sight wireless personal area network

6. Phone-to-phone networking

7. Self standing phone - just place phone edge tilted on any stable surface to stand.

8. Tactile touch screen

9. Built in Projector

10. 360x360 degree zoom able video

習慣付けのためルーチン検討で、目の前の駐車場で軽く練習してきた。立てのバランスとプレシ。

プレシは前と違って、距離の練習ではなく、ギリギリ確信がある距離の練習で、まだ不確実な着地を反芻。そしてその慣れた距離中で、慣れてない地面に着地。駐車場だけだけど、安心のコンクリート、変な形のプラスチック、滑りそうな鉄製の車輪止め、バランス練習で使ってるいい高さがでる柵、素晴らしく揃ってる！

これでしばらく遊べそう。無理と思って諦めた障害物が生きてきた。

寝る前すこし体を動かすつもりだったのに、結局かなりの汗！

言語学とパソコンの交差点そのものソフト開発っていうのは基本的に文字の羅列を操る仕事です。プログラムを書いて25年間、言葉とパソコンの間を交錯する道を行き来して、最近不思議に言葉に変換できない思考が増えてる。

行動したい気持ち。体を稼働させるシミュレーション。移動する空間。リズムの気持ちよさ。筋肉の痛み、体の調子。デジタルな活字もいいものですが、そればかりが知的な表現ではない。もっとも、人間は先天的に能力を子供に授けず、パソコンと同じく後天的に「インストール」されるものですから、体を動かす技能も、動物でありながら人間でいる存在も、知恵と同様人から受け継がれるものです。

親の世代までの当たり前は、受け継がれなきゃ、忘れられる方言みたいなものです。方言が話せないオレにとって、体を動かす楽しさを発見したのは、まさに生き甲斐です！そう、この今を生きるためにプログラムを書いてきたんだって感じ！

口内炎で会話したくない1日ふと思った。

IMAGINE what if all tax money were managed in a digital currency pinned to the national currency, and all payouts as well as the private expenditure of persons in public offices were traceable and public?

You could receive a report that traces which minister spent the dollar you paid in taxes and on what. Don't you deserve to know?

I don't really watch sports, cos I can't wrap my head around the idea that I can share in the glory of any team or person I have not trained with or contributed in any way to their achievement - save for the fact that my watching is part of what creates an industry that allows commercial entities to make sports a viable profession.

I am thankfully inspired by their achievements, that I too can get somewhere in my own training. But I'll always be careful to remember that their success is what they earned with their time, their blood, and their sweat; the celebration is their gift to us, but the glory belongs only to the team that made it happen.

Think about the things you do once a day. These are what it takes to survive being you.

Think about the things you do twice a week. These are the dreams that are going to become reality.

Think of the things you do once a week. These are a complete waste of time.

距離は体で測るもの。
気持ちは動いて確かめるもの。
そう考えてここで生きているのを楽しんでいる今を、
忘れたくない。

2016

2016

#myworld

Clickety Clickety Tock Tick Tock Tock
Who's under your mouse
What's rousing your thoughts
Is your mind your keep is your mound your god
Dreamed up by an Aladdin rubbing his shiny lot
Behind the order behind the peace
Benign or vicious belies the Beast
Beating a rhythm to the rhyme of service
The System that serves is the System that lives

The living know the dead they buried
The System keeps their ghosts alive
In the wombs of brilliant minds conceived
The System that makes rain fall in line
Roses and guns play games of the married
While the Beast feeds on yet another wife
For living its purpose the System gets credit
As its patrons hide its secret life
What the Beast takes the System gives
What the System unites the Beast divides
What the Beast seeks the System completes;
You, are never on its mind

Stand with the shunned, stand with the stars
Stand in the west, stand in the east
Where you stand is now who you are
Around a sun that is now the Beast

Stand in the limelight, stand behind bars
Stand in the battles ignored by the Just
Where you stand is now your crime
Legal is where they draw the line

Stand for the vegans, stand for the gays,
Stand for freedom, stand for equal pay,
Where you stand is now religion
Where you bend is power play.

Stand on the left, stand on the right
Stand for Hilary, stand for Trump
Where you stand is now your fight
For the mighty pen or the mightier gun.

#addYourOwnVerse

Psychedelic punctuation

I'm just a collection. of punctuation,
Loosely tied, together my life looking, like a sentence;
I look, like I'm all words meaning, and imagination
But really, I'm deep in commas in quasi random motion.
Don't look, at the words they are the beginning, of the notion
Don't nod, at my pretentious, enunciation;
Don't look, into the lines like grooves in the sky ,
Go on sink deeper into the ocean of your mind.

Gargle gargle spit, split split shuffle
I'm a cup of commas, I'm a question marking deck
Rumble tumble kiss, skip skip mumble
I'm a train of broken thoughts crashing down the tracks
Come come come come come with me
Let's hold hands and pretend we're the flock and the flack
Run run run run run with me
Let's live in the rim the rom and the ram

Period. Period. Period. Period.
History doesn't lie between cracks men do that.
Period. Period. Exclamation, Period!
The line on the dot oh what's that?

Full stop.
Full stop.
Full stop.
Full stop.
Full stop.
Full stop.
Full stop.
Full stop.

二足走行は非常に技術が必要な動きです。でも誰もがそれを「危ない」と言わない。練習って、そんなもんです。

One man kissed another
And the herd fell apart

One Instagram shot

One Instagram shot
Captured for me the rawness
That was Hong Kong
The rage the thirst for growth
Uncontainable,
Rough,
Like it was determined
Never to achieve the sleek perfection
That is Japan to me.
Like it knew in its fabric
That when you can tear yourself
Out of the illusion of perfection
The courage to dream
To reach the stars
Becomes a little more real.

The single most privileged group on earth must be the human beings.

They are so powerful the have largely attained immunity in the food web - as much as an aberration it may sound, most humans go through life eating without ever imagining getting eaten. They feel justified to monopolize large areas of land by making it uninhabitable by any species but themselves. They habitually kill other animals and store the meat until it becomes inedible, and then simply burn it all up, without even returning it to the scavengers. And they will continue to amass more and more control over the planet so that no other species may be considered their equal.

If you have never feared getting eaten, if you have never felt guilty of owning a home bigger than what your biological needs require, if you have never needed to risk danger for every meal, if you have never thought the overpopulation by your species has made the earth less abundant, you must be human. Because this is what privilege is like - your brain blocks it from your awareness so that you don't have to struggle with the fact that you have broken your social contract, your promises, to the community that made you.

Isn't the princess dream the worst thing you can give a daughter? It's like making her live your perpetual denial that your dream had failed you the moment you were born.

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二人の間の距離を引っ張り合いながら、自分の軌道を絶対譲らない関係が欲しい。

包まれたい。ミートパイのミートのように。

IMAGINE: what would the world be like if, other than unwritten promises, everything had an explicit expiry date : money, cash, tangible and non-tangible assets, employment contracts, marriage contracts, laws, degrees, employment history - everything that makes it possible to create inherited wealth?

There are three pillars that keep traditions alive: its usefulness to the individual, its necessity to perpetuate itself, and its usefulness to people in power. The first is what people speak of, the second is what people do not speak of, and the third is what makes people say it's just the right thing to do.

If forever is the time between the time we're born till the day we die, then, friends, we we all born to live forever.